Uni Life...

Hi again…

I’ve been reading blogs on and off for a long time. The thing I always find most disconcerting about them is when they stop. You’ve been reading along with someone’s life, learning about what they do and who they are, then suddenly the posts get farther and farther apart. Then they stop altogether.

You keep checking back and scrolling through the last few posts trying to figure out what might have happened. What stopped this person from wanting to share their journey with you. Of course it’s not just with you, it’s with the whole internet, but it feels like it’s just with you. As if you’ve learnt so much about their lives that you start to feel as though you’re part of it, as though they’re a friend you’re looking out for. Part of me wants to email them and ask them where they went but I realise that they don’t know me, they don’t feel like I’m their friend, I’m a stranger.

To me it always feels like something a little sinister even though I know that in reality whoever it is got busy just like I did. Their life was suddenly too much to get down on a website at the end of the day. Or maybe they ran out of inspiration and couldn’t find the words to make anything sound interesting. But I guess to the reader it just feels like a story left unfinished.

And I am living proof of that, I just got so distracted. I can’t believe it’s been six months since I last wrote anything, it does not feel like six months.

When I say wrote anything, I obviously mean wrote anything on here because I’ve actually written several essays and a twelve and a half thousand word dissertation since then. Now it’s all done and we’re in the painful process of waiting for results.

2 weeks tomorrow.

In the meantime I’m going to be turning 23 and having major freak outs about where my life is headed now that I don’t have the safety net of further education to catch me.

I have big plans for sorting my life out this summer which I’ll be sharing with you over the next few weeks. If you’re a long time reader of this blog and have managed to stick around for this 6 month dry spell then you’ll know I’m pretty much always trying to sort my life out. I guess that’s just how it goes, my life is a work in progress.

Sorry for being so quiet for so long, I’m glad to be back, it feels good to write again.

That’s all for now



Films I've Seen..., My Future...

My top five ways I’ll know I’ve ‘made it’…

I have a habit of setting unrealistic goals for myself. As a result of being a fairly optimistic person I genuinely believe that at some point in my life I am going to be really rich and have the job of my dreams and live in a big house with loads of antiques and throw dinner parties every weekend. It’s not that I can’t imagine the prospect of everything going wrong and ending up poor and unhappy but even then I’ll probably assume it’s only temporary.

I’ve long entertained these ideas of what my life will be like when I’ve ‘made it’ in the real world and become a proper grown up and there’s certain things I must own or be before I can declare myself satisfied.

I must have one of these

1) I must have ‘One of those cool old phones like off of Three Men and  a Baby’

If you’ve never seen Three Men and a Baby I must first ask what on earth you’re doing with your life and demand that you find some way of watching it immediately…it has Tom Selleck, Ted Danson and some other guy taking care of a baby, that’s all you need to know (and I’m talking Tom Selleck and Ted Danson before they both got old and fat, don’t google what they look like now because it’ll just depress you).

Anyway, in said film they are not only taking care of a baby, they are also living together in an amazing penthouse apartment which Tom Selleck’s character designed because he plays an architect. They have lots of cool stuff and the coolest of all this stuff is one of those old fashioned wall phones where you hold one thing to your ear and speak into the thing on the wall, totally impractical in today’s world of mobile devices. Anyway, I’ve kind of lost  where I was going with this because, in case you haven’t noticed, I really like talking about Three Men and a Baby…oh yes so this phone, this is what I’m going to own and that is the first thing I’m going to buy when I have extra money and a nice house.

Because this film was made in the 80s there is a severe lack of screen shots from it online so I couldn’t find one of them actually using the phone, instead you can just look at Tom Selleck et al with a small baby

2) I’ll shop only at Waitrose and buy all organic food

Pretty self explanatory really. I’ll have a kitchen with an island and lots of extremely expensive brightly coloured kitchenware and make nutritious and organic meals for my children and husband after a nice country walk…or something like that. As long as I have a kitchen with an island and the brightly coloured kitchenware it’s cool.

3) Own a grand piano

I cannot play the piano. Nor do I currently have any space whatsoever to put one. But that is not the point. One day when I’ve earnt so much money that I don’t even need to work anymore, and I spend most of my time doing volunteer work, I’ll host lavish dinner parties and play the grand piano (obviously I will have learnt by then) as the guests enter through my marble foyer.

4) Go on a game show because ‘I fancy a challenge’

You know those people who go on game shows just because they’re retired and have nothing better to do? Like when old rich people go on Come Dine With Me and host the dinner party in their mansions and make a point of saying that they ‘couldn’t care less about the money’, they just want to see if they could do it.

This actually seems kind of mean considering that, by this stage in life, that grand you might win from going on Come Dine With Me could actually CHANGE SOMEONES LIFE and yet you’re just going on there to keep yourself entertained. And when you do win, which you inevitably will since you can afford to spend hundreds on getting your guests excessively drunk on champagne so that they assume they must have had a good time even though they can barely remember it, you can just take that grand and add it to one of your many piles of money.

You know what, I’m not so sure about this…ok, I’ll go on a game show for the challenge but then give all my winnings to charity, much better.

5) Go on a spur of the moment holiday

When we were discussing this idea of having ‘made it’ at some point, one of my friends said that going on a spur of the moment holiday was the way she would know that she had made it in life. So now I’m stealing the idea for my blog because I’ve decided I want to do this one day too! So you’ll wake up on, say, a Tuesday morning and you’re feeling a little overworked, you turn to your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife and say ‘I could really do with a holiday’ and they grab a laptop and book a minibreak to Italy for that weekend, all before you’ve even got up for work. I hope my boyfriend is reading this and taking note.

I’ll be there by Friday night…

That’s all for now


My Fresh Start...

My top five things about de-junking my life…


As I mentioned in my last blog, since arriving home from America I have decided to ‘turn my life around’ . Part of this mission is to clear out my room in my parents’ house so that it becomes a pleasant and livable space; something which it hasn’t been for several years. The reason for this? I am a hoarder. I admit it, I have a serious problem when it comes to throwing things away because who knows when that thing that looks like rubbish, and almost certainly is rubbish, might come in useful?! I never really realised how bad I was until I went to uni and had people repeatedly exclaim about how much stuff I had in my small room while all I could think was ‘I’ve got 10 times this amount at home..’.

When I got back from Albany it all got too much. I couldn’t find anything I needed, none of my drawers would close because of the clothes spilling out of them and I was getting close to having a mental breakdown every time I needed to get ready to go out.

So this is it, I’ve decided that enough is enough, however difficult I find it I am removing all the junk from my life and, not only that, but I’m determined to see the positive side of the process.

1) It’s liberating

Having so much more stuff than I needed was beginning to make me feel stifled. My room is perfectly big enough for one person, in fact I think under the piles of stuff it’s actually rather large, but it had stopped feeling cozy and welcoming to me, it felt cramped and messy. With each bit of rubbish I’ve unearthed and swiftly thrown into a bin bag and each piece of clothing which is either too big, too small or just pretty hideous that’s gone into a bag for the charity shop, I’ve felt that little bit more free.

2) Helping a good cause

Yeah I could be doing a lot more for charity but I guess every little helps and the bags of stuff I’m sending to the charity shop will hopefully be sold and that money can do some good somewhere.

3) Coming across long lost items

Those who know me well know that I am incredibly sentimental and sappy a lot of the time and one of my all time favourite things about sorting my life out is that it gives me an excuse to spend ages looking at old photos and  reminiscing over things I made in primary school before ceremoniously placing them in a bin bag and deciding I’m ready to move on with my life. Whether they’re funny or sad or just make me smile, it’s nice to be reminded of things I’ve done or seen and people who I grew up with.

4) I can find things again!

It’s cut my getting ready time in half, I’m not turning my room upside down in order to find whatever piece of clothing I want for that day and the things I’d given up on ever seeing again are now available to me at any moment.

5) Make some money….?

Now this is one I’m a little unsure about. I’m yet to give it a go but I am assured that the odd thing I’ve come across in my room could be worth a little money and why not at least try since my year abroad has left me in debt in pretty much every direction. The most obvious choices here are Ebay and Amazon both of which I have a little experience with. I think the key is not to go out with expectations that I’m going to make my millions; this is pocket money and anything is better than what I’m getting out of it sitting in my room and getting in my way. Anyway, the first items on the agenda are a nearly brand new script to the first Lord of the Rings film (don’t ask me why I have this, I was 10 when I bought it and clearly my parents were too indulgent) and a hardly used hogwarts satchel. I’m counting on the cult following for both LOTR and Harry Potter to provide me with some customers here. I’ll update on how my new online selling enterprise goes as soon as I get round to it!

So there you go, my top 5 reasons why it’s actually great to break a lifelong habit of hoarding and give yourself a fresh start.

That’s all for now


My Fresh Start...

Back to England, Back to Real Life and (hopefully) Back to Blogging…


I’m backkkk

So…it’s been an awfully long time since I’ve blogged and I feel like it’s about time I get back to it now that I have nothing except going to work occasionally to distract me! Yes, I’m back in the UK for good (apart from going on holiday next week) and I’m determined to get this blog back up and running.

I originally started this blog to talk about my year abroad and, for the first semester, I dutifully posted…not as much as I would have liked but I gave it a good go. Then I went home for Christmas and when I went back to Albany I somehow failed to write another blog the whole 5 months that I was out there! Don’t ask me what went wrong, a combination of being too homesick/busy/lazy at varying points to get round to it I think. It’d be all too easy to just never write another blog again but I seem to have a habit of giving up on pretty much everything I start on and I’ve decided that isn’t going to happen with this!

So yes, after a shockingly long break I’m back and ready to write about my life and I hope you all enjoy it. I’m not really sure exactly what this blog is going to be now that I’m back. I’ll probably stick with the top five theme for the most part and I imagine it’ll most likely end up being my top five of my top five. That’s a convoluted way of saying that it’s probably going to be a lot of top fives about the things I like the most which includes music, books, cooking, eating and going to uni, with a fair amount of ‘things I’ve been thinking about while bored at work’ thrown in.

I’ve also started on a new ‘turning my life around’ mission which includes clearing out my room, rebuilding old friendships which got lost as a result of being 3000 miles away for a year and getting new hobbies to make me a well rounded human being (ha). So I’ll keep you updated on how that’s going as well.

I will be back very soon, I promise!

That’s all for now